Wow. In the wide wide world of blogging, I’m quite a ways behind. My latest attempt to be more on top of things has been to subscribe to other people’s blogs, which is mindnumbingly easy to do if you have Google Reader, and once I commence to read them, it’s like gaining new blogging experience all together.  A spin of the wheel moves the topics by. Some are useful, some are humorous, and sadly, I admit to subscribing to People’s blog (but they only give you a sentence teaser in order to get you go drag open a new bright blue window with the whole story, and I usually just don’t care that much to do that).Â
But the fact is, there’s SO much out there that I wonder if reading it all is doing any good for any of my writing. Because you can cruise through this stuff in this sort of zoned out state, how much I’m retaining isn’t as much as if I were sitting and deliberately reading a book. However, this is solving a very looming problem of ‘If my job REALLY IS to sit in this chair in the event that someone might come here or the phone might ring, I might as well have something mildly entertaining to do to keep from going postal,’ and this really fits the bill. I can’t read books at work, but via this method I almost find it more to an advantage: I’m not entirely 100% ultra super focused on what I’m reading, so when the occasional person enters or the more likely phone rings, it’s easier to leave where I was and return to it moments later, and all the time, I carry on the appearance that I AM working.Â
Through much of this, I feel I’ve been existing in a cave-much of it is far beyond me. Even many of the the ‘I’m just a beginner,’ or ‘I’m new at this’ blogs I come across, I feel like I just got dropped off by the little bus. The fact that I have no real ongoing theme or topic other than what’s in my brain I fear could be a detriment. I was told that content is key, but I’m a dilettante-I know SOMETHING about just about everything, but not enough to write a book or maintain a blog about it.
All in all, it’s just a big ego trip. I want to be the one thousands of people link to and check to see if I’ve uttered anything in the last 24 hours. I want to be the one with the content people check to see if it’s been updated time and again every day. But how can I become queen of my own universe when I’m so bogged in others’ blogs? When I get through everything at first, sifting through the hundreds of thousands of opinions, pointers, and ongoings of other people’s lives, will I be caught up, and will enough information have soaked in as to make me a fabulous writer in the ‘blogosphere?’
At the very least, when I do become the illustrious blogger with all of the witty yet brilliant things to say, I’ll be so prepared and it’ll all look so cool people will be thinking ‘damn, I wish MY site looked as good as hers. She’s probably been here for a really long time….’ Until next time…